Friday, July 25, 2014

My Dream Home

So it all started with the couch pictured above. The store Z Gallerie in my local mall, always has this couch out on display, and literally every single time my boyfriend and I go to the mall, we HAVE to stop by Z Gallerie and sit on this amazing couch. And every time we sit on it we say, "We need this couch". It's also about $5,000, so I have no idea how we're going to afford that when we move out after finishing college, but we've even gone as far as to say that we'd rather have no bed, and just sleep on this couch. It is THAT comfy. The "Conversation Pit", it is called, is made up of different pieces that can be rearranged in different formations such as a traditional sofa and ottomans, a sectional, or one giant Conversation Pit. 

If you remember me mentioning in my 20 Facts About Me post, I love daydreaming about the future. And one way I do that is scrolling through Pinterest and looking at all the amazing home decor ideas. The other day, I asked my boyfriend "What color would you like the walls in our house to be?" and his answer was "royal blue". At first I was like "No. That is way too dark of a color on the walls". But then I turned to Pinterest and looked up "blue walls" and I actually found some really nice rooms! Assuming we'd buy the couch mentioned above, I thought we could also incorporate browns and white/beige as well. 

Of course, this is all hypothetical (; 

(I've also seen this chair at Restoration Hardware, and I want)

All photos from Pinterest! 

Wednesday, July 23, 2014

Downtown Disney Date

I never thought I'd be into leopard print, but I absolutely love this scarf! I also have a bikini top in a leopard print that I wear entirely too often (considering that I have 9 other bikini tops). In a sense, leopard reminds me of a neutral. You can wear it really with any color, and sometimes other prints! 

I wore this outfit out on a dinner date to Downtown Disney this past week with my boyfriend. I know a lot of people who are obsessed with Disneyland, have season passes, etc., but I haven't been in at least 10 years (probably more). Yes, it's only about a half hour's drive from my house, but have you seen the price of a one-day ticket into Disneyland? It's absurd! And that's not even including food and and other items you buy while you're in the park. My boyfriend and I were already sick of the massive crowds of people in Downtown Disney upon arrival. I guess it's not for everyone...  

I chose to wear fake eyelashes for this date. Aren't they just so fun? (: 

// Jeans: Rag & Bone // Tank: Target // Jacket & Boots: Tilly's // Earrings: Charlotte Russe // Purse: Love D //

Monday, July 21, 2014

Somewhere Over the Rainbow

More ombre! I tried to do a gradient effect here using all colors of the rainbow, red to purple (by the way, does it bug anyone else that they teach it as "violet" now? I was taught red-orange-yellow-green-blue-PURPLE). Some of the colors were a little difficult to blend, but overall I think it turned out looking like a rainbow, which was the desired effect after all. 

Saturday, July 19, 2014

My Thoughts On: My SVT Heart Condition & Catheter Ablation Surgery

If you remember, in my 20 Facts About Me post I mentioned how I was recently diagnosed with a heart condition and I promised I was going to go into more detail about it after I had my corrective surgery. Well I had that surgery done on Monday July 14th and I think I have been dreading writing this post. It is quite a long story to tell, and I understand if you are uninterested in this topic. But I had no idea about this condition until my doctor told me about it, so I figure maybe a lot of other people are unaware too. 

Let's start from the beginning:

Ever since about 7th grade (when I was 13 years old), I have been getting these random heart palpitations. When people ask me how I describe it, I say "It's like a hard, uncomfortable pounding sensation. I feel like my heart is going to jump out of my chest or explode. When it happens, I can feel it coming on, and if you are standing next to me, all I have to do is stand really still and you can see the veins in my neck as well as my chest pulsing up and down. It's not a fast heart beat, like when I exercise, it is a strong pounding". I have given that speech to so many people and so many doctors it's practically a script. As for when it happens, it is totally random. It has happened to me:

-while sitting in a desk at school
-after getting out of a hot shower
-after getting out of a hot bath
-when it's hot outside
-if I am dehydrated 
-when I am anxious about something
-after exercising (this is the most common one)
-when I wake up in the morning and haven't had anything to eat or drink yet

My senior year of high school, my boyfriend and I went for a hike up a local mountain in our area, and my heart "did it's thing" (that's what I say) at least 10 times throughout the course of our 8-hour hike. It was then that my parents decided my heart issue needed to be looked into closer. We went to my normal doctor and she gave me a heart monitor to wear for 24 hours, in hopes that my heart would do it's thing in that time span and they would be able to get the readings of the occurrence. Sure enough, nothing happened and we still knew nothing.  

Here I am, about 4 years later, and we decided to look into it a second time, because the incidences were much more frequent. When I went into urgent care, the doctor I saw actually told me "You know, when you exercise, your heart will beat at a very fast rate"... You don't say?! I was so frustrated at this point, because I knew that what was going on with my heart was not normal. I completely disregarded what the stupid urgent care doctor said and went back to my normal physician, where I then was given another heart monitor to wear, this time for 3 weeks. Let me tell you, the monitor that consisted of two circular stickers and 2 wires and a box that I wore around my neck like a weird necklace was a pain in the butt. I was originally supposed to wear it for only one week, but my heart didn't do its thing in that span, so I had it extended for another two weeks. And FINALLY, I was in yoga class one day and I could feel it coming on and it happened and the incident was recorded. I was so stoked! 

After that, I was referred to see a cardiac specialist. He showed us the reading of the incident when my heart "freaked out" (another phrase I use to describe these happenings). And finally, a label was put on it! He told me I have SVT, or Supraventricular Tachycardia. It has to do with the electrical nodes in your heart and the signals they send to pump blood in and out of your heart. The healthy heart only has two nodes that send signals, but when you have SVT, there is a third area that is also transmitting signals, which causes a unusual circuit and makes the heart beat fast, hard, inconsistently,  etc. Apparently it is pretty common and a lot of people just choose to live with it. I remember feeling so relieved that I finally knew what was wrong. Sure, I had a heart problem, but now I could put a name to it and I knew I wasn't just imagining something (like that urgent care doctor was suggesting). That was in February of this year. We made an appointment to go through with a corrective surgery for July. 

To fix SVT, a procedure called Catheter Ablation is performed. When I told people that I was having heart surgery, I think everyone jumped to the conclusion of open heart surgery, which is totally not the case. For Catheter Ablation, they go through the vein (or is it artery?) in you groin with a catheter filled with wires. This catheter then makes its way up into the heart, where the wires will send signals to make the heart beat fast and hard, in hopes of triggering the palpitations and locating the third electrical node. Once the doctor finds the spot, they burn the cells in that area, which will hopefully prevent the SVT from occurring again. For this procedure, you are completely awake. They give you a sedative to calm you down, but they need you to be awake, otherwise they won't be able to get your heart to beat like it needs to. 

I decided to go through with this procedure, and I was beyond nervous. My family, my boyfriend, and I drove to L.A. at 4:30am on Monday the 14th, as I had to be there to check in at 6:30am. I had to fast from midnight on Sunday until the surgery, and let me tell you, that was probably the hardest part for me. I am the kind of person who wakes up in the morning starving and has to eat right away otherwise I feel nauseous and faint. I could not eat anything that morning and I was grumpy and starving. By the time we got to the hospital, all nerves were gone, I just wanted to get it over with so I could eat! Which was probably a good distraction for me. 

Now onto the surgery: it went exactly how I described it two paragraphs ago. First they numbed my groin area, then inserted the catheter. Those two things were probably the most uncomfortable, as it was a lot of inward pressure. The catheters and wires were into my heart within 5 minutes, which surprised me the most! They then started sending out the signals which made my heart beat really fast and hard, like it usually does when I have an episode. This was pretty uncomfortable too, as I was just laying still and my heart was pounding and I wasn't doing anything and had no control over it. However, they went at that for about and hour and a half, and they could not find the area where my 3rd electrical node originates from. They couldn't see it, so they couldn't burn anything, and they couldn't fix my SVT. I was so upset and disappointed. I cried a lot at that point. They cleaned me up and brought me back to the recovery area. I was still so sad. After the procedure, you have to lay on your back for 4 hours with a pressure bandage on the incision site and a weighted sandbag on top of that, to close up the tiny hole from the catheter, no stitches were needed. The nurse told me that my family could come back to see me, but at that point I was so sad and teary, I knew that if I saw my family or boyfriend I would just break down and lose it. So she told them that I wanted to rest. After about two hours of laying down, my nurse propped me up in a sitting position and gave me some food. I decided to let my family come back to see me at that point. They hung out with me for another hour or so, and then they started to get me ready to go home. 

The drive home wasn't too bad. My groin was pretty sore, like a really bad bruise. I still had the pressure bandage on, which made it impossible to bend my leg at the hip. For the first 24 hours, I was told to lay down and do nothing. As I am writing this, it is Thursday after the surgery and I am pretty much healed. My groin is pretty bruised, and hurts to the touch, but I am comfortable walking now. I can't return to normal exercise or physical activities until next Monday, the one-week mark. It is pretty upsetting, that I went through with the surgery and they weren't able to fix my problem. My plan is to keep a log of all the times I have an episode, and if it every becomes overly extensive, maybe I'll give the surgery another try. Or I'll just live with it. I can go on medication, but if you remember from my 20 Facts About Me post, I hate taking pills. And I don't like the idea of being on a daily medication for something that is so sporadic and random. Only time will tell! 

Thank you so much if you read this whole post (:      

Thursday, July 17, 2014

White Denim Obsession

I feel like ever since I bought these white Rag & Bone jeans a month or two ago, when I'm envisioning an outfit to put together, I immediately think of how well it would look with these white pants. I have to remind myself that I do own traditional blue denim... Then again, maybe it's a summer thing, I just love white jeans in the spring and summer! Especially paired with bright colors or soft pastels.

// Jeans: Rag & Bone // Top: Target // Necklace: Styles for Less // Watch: Michael Kors // Clutch: was my grandma's //

Tuesday, July 15, 2014

Tuxedo Nails

So I can't help but look at these and be reminded of a tuxedo... that was not what I had in mind when I started painting my nails for this design. Maybe if I added two more black rhinestones it would definitely look like a tuxedo! 

Sunday, July 13, 2014

My Fashion Alter-Ego: Cowgirl

For this fashion alter-ego, I know I am completely stereotyping "cowgirls" and that my idea of "country" fashion is daisy dukes, cowboy boots, thick belts, and a cowboy hat. Sorry if you are actually a cowgirl and this is nowhere near how you dress! 

Aside from that, I really do love horses and I wish my parents would've gotten me into horseback riding when I was little. However, the only people who have horses in my area live in ridiculously rich gated communities and have their horse boarded at a stable where someone else does all the dirty work for them... 

All photos are from Pinterest!